her only son, and what do you do? You just leave her stranded. Did those people carry you for ten months and took care of you until now? Can’t you see how sad she is right now? She might not show it, but we all know that she really miss you. Are those people more important to you than your own family? If so, I really wish that you move the eff out. We don’t need you. We didn’t need you when you left months ago, we don’t need you now. Mom have us, she doesn’t need you. But all she really wanted from you was an explanation. You couldn’t even give her that, and you act like this house is your hotel or something. You can’t just come in, grab what you want and leave. I’m so disappointed in you. I wish I have a brother that actually cares for us, you are useless to me.

are the best! Even if I don’t tell my older seester what went wrong in my life. She somehow knew what to say. “Friends will always come and go, you take it as a lesson and move on. But family will always be here, and we only have one lifetime together.” Just talking to her makes me feel better and it gives me strength. I might lose a person or two that I used to consider as important in my life, but I gained an understanding that there will always be people that will not be part of your life forever. And that is their decision and you can’t control it. I’ll just go with the flow and take it day by day. 

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This have been one of the best vacation ever. Spent time with family and friends I haven’t seen in a long time. Rekindled friendships and realized who would be there for me. I might have lost some in the process, but friends come and go. The ones that matters are the ones that showed you they cared and proved it to you. I did mostly everything I wanted and I started a photography project as well. Now I am ready to hit the slopes before school starts. 

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My thoughts are not the same anymore, it runs away after a few minutes and I can’t remember what I wanted to say. Is this a sign of old age? haha. Overall, I couldn’t ask for a better vacation. Great time spent with my wonderful family and friends that showed/proved to me that they wanted to be part of my life. I am very grateful. Now onto my ramblings. 

Thinking back, all this time, I thought I knew everything that went on around the house. But how could I? If my room was all the way on the third floor and I rarely go downstairs. There are so many things that goes on that I don’t even know about. I realized I take my family for granted a lot of times. This vacation just proved to me that no matter how close you think you are to your friends. Your family will always be there. I really love them. 

Our friendship is so important to me, but I feel like there’s so much I can do. No matter how much I tried to make it work, I feel like it won’t be the same. There will always be some kind of awkwardness between us. Even if I put it behind me, even if I don’t think about it. Deep down we both know, it is like a deep dark secret you are trying to hide from everyone. I miss talking to you, I miss being able to text you and not worry if you are going to text back or not. I miss that relationship we had, where we were so close that I even considered you family, a sister to me. I miss you being in my life. Do things really happened for a reason? Then please do explain to me, why did this happened? You were once so close and now you feel so far. I just want my friend back. It just really bothers. I hope this is just another obstacle or some sort of test that we have to go through. 

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comes down to who actually makes an effort to be in your life.

So much that I don’t even know how to organize my thoughts or anything. It’s all pretty jumbled. So I’m just going to make a list:

• I really want to go snowboarding, get really good this year. Maybe even buy my first snowboard, go as many times as I can during winter break. :]
• Been thinking really hard about radiopharmacy after I get my degree. More opportunities and another challenge for myself?
• Sometimes just being with good company really make everything go by faster.
• I really want a GoPro camera.
• I value friendships and family dearly. Without them, I don’t think I can be who I am today. 
• Love and being with a special someone is not on my to do list nor is it important to me. I will always love you and you will always have a special place in my heart.  
• Change, there will always be changes around me. 
• Grasp every opportunity I get. 
• Sangria to relax my stressed mind. 

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• Like I said, I used my days perfectly, being a bum and hanging out with love ones I haven’t seen in ages. 
• Eat a lot of yummy food.
• Bond with the family and abuse the brats <3

Now what I can’t wait for is

• Putting up the tree and decorations
• About three more weeks of hell and I get to stay home
• Sleep and be fat