My thoughts are not the same anymore, it runs away after a few minutes and I can’t remember what I wanted to say. Is this a sign of old age? haha. Overall, I couldn’t ask for a better vacation. Great time spent with my wonderful family and friends that showed/proved to me that they wanted to be part of my life. I am very grateful. Now onto my ramblings.
Thinking back, all this time, I thought I knew everything that went on around the house. But how could I? If my room was all the way on the third floor and I rarely go downstairs. There are so many things that goes on that I don’t even know about. I realized I take my family for granted a lot of times. This vacation just proved to me that no matter how close you think you are to your friends. Your family will always be there. I really love them.
Our friendship is so important to me, but I feel like there’s so much I can do. No matter how much I tried to make it work, I feel like it won’t be the same. There will always be some kind of awkwardness between us. Even if I put it behind me, even if I don’t think about it. Deep down we both know, it is like a deep dark secret you are trying to hide from everyone. I miss talking to you, I miss being able to text you and not worry if you are going to text back or not. I miss that relationship we had, where we were so close that I even considered you family, a sister to me. I miss you being in my life. Do things really happened for a reason? Then please do explain to me, why did this happened? You were once so close and now you feel so far. I just want my friend back. It just really bothers. I hope this is just another obstacle or some sort of test that we have to go through.